I had another sleep deprived night last night and, as a result, spent most of today asleep with just waking up to use the bathroom. The Beast came in twice and asked me if I was all right or was I feeling sick. I got pissed and said, *No! I am NOT sick. I am tired. I could NOT get to sleep last night for the second night in a row.* From there, I went back to sleep and slept away most of the day.
Which brings me to the problem that in itself brings. A round robin...! If you sleep all day, how do you also sleep at night? I am going to call my doctor's office in the morning and see if I can't get in to see him and discuss this with him. As much as I hate the thought, I may ask him for just a few sleeping pills to use to break this cycle. I've already stopped drinking any cola or coffee after 5pm. Even the Beast noticed that, although he had made a fresh pot of coffee (for me, he said) before he left for church.
At least tonight my legs are not twitching and I have hopes of getting a little sleep before I need to call the doctor's office in the morning. I am determined that the Beast will NOT drive me. He's taken too much control over my life lately as it is. I am NOT helpless, I am NOT sick and I am not going to put up with it.
As good as he has been to me lately, he has his own agenda (and hopes, too, I think!). I have to admit that I don't mind him taking over the cooking since he HAS become a fairly good cook. But I need to break this cycle of no sleeping at night or I won't be able to resume my functions as the wife here. I'm just not doing enough for him to get off my back and stop telling tales that are not true.
Sorry to bitch so much but I AM a bit on the cranky side tonight. I really DO love you all and wish only the best of everything for you. Stay warm and dry. Be good. Have a great Hump Day. ***Hugs***
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