First of all, the Beast went to the pulmonary doctor on Monday and was told his COPD is just a bit below severe. He is on two different sprays as well as a pill of some kind. There is no cure for COPD...you just learn to live with it and hope it doesn't get worse.
Tuesday (today) the Beast FINALLY took the dog into the vet's for a couple different reasons. #1...that poor paw had never been checked out. #2....he had managed to scratch a couple new sores open on his side.
Turns out the paw needs surgery. There is a lump that must be removed and then Baron will need a skin graft to cover the area. The Beast is also having her remove the fatty tumor on his side at the same time. The vet started to give Baron the same pills she had last time, which helped the sores but left Baron unable to hold his *water* so he dribbled and pee'd everywhere but the Beast told her about the problem and she changed her mind. She said those are the things they have to be told or else we would have to deal with the same problems. So far, so good with the new pills. He does seem to have stopped scratching. I told the Beast that it really figures that we would get a dog....a very expensive one, at that....that had *sensitive* skin. Sheesh.
So, there you have it. Some of what I have had to mentally deal with for two days. Besides that, I have been incredibly tired. My feet hurt me to walk on them. That's partly my fault since I have been doing so much sleeping that I am not taking my pills right. I tried texting Sheepie, hoping she was at work, to find out if I could get her to pick me up some Depends to keep in the house for my next IBS attack. It's the only sensible thing to do. Everything else is just too messy and awful to think about. But she never returned my text so I guess I will have to get dressed tomorrow and go do that myself. I sure don't want to send the Beast to do it! He just never uses his head about a lot of things and getting the proper fit, or even style, would be beyond his ken.
Well, time to hit the sack for me. If I have to go to the store tomorrow, I need to be sure to be up bright and early. Love you all. Stay warm, dry and enjoy your Hump Day! ***Hugs***
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Nothing Ever Goes Right....
I was exhausted last night but couldn't fall asleep at first. I thought it was because I had spent so much time sleeping the previous three days but I did fall asleep, finally. I slept well until early this morning when I suddenly woke up to THAT feeling again. Yes, you got it! Another episode of IBS. Not quite as bad as the previous one but still unexpected since I had felt so good the day before. After a bit of time, I knew I was not going to be making the trip over to the Princess' house for our dinner. I called her and told her and had the Beast bring over the food I had made. I did ask her to send over some food for us later (which she did via Tara). I had to laugh at Chance, who was so cute and gave me a big hug. He was in a great mood. He was in no hurry to get home, either.
I know I had to have looked awful because Tara said I looked both pale and kind of grey. She has no clue what IBS is and I really couldn't go into it with her just then but I did manage to eat some of the great food. The Princess has turned into a great cook. She made a banana pudding that was incredible! Her turkey was moist and tasty. We had green bean casserole, some dinner rolls and even a slice of pecan pie that Johnnycakes dad had made. The mashed potatoes were great but I missed having some gravy for it. Oh well! Beggars can't be choosers....LOL!
I found out that Sheepie and Teach didn't make it either because Sheepie was sick. I don't doubt it after working for 12 hours straight on Black Friday! But she sent over the green bean casserole for everyone. That was sweet of her. Two of us down sick. Sad.
Tara stayed for a while and brought us up to speed on what's going on with her kids and her ex's. She said she knew she was a bad niece and needed to come and visit us more often. I just laughed and agreed with her. I know she's busy. It's tough working and managing a household. I remember. I also remember how much help my sister, Cee, was back then and don't know if she ever knew just how grateful I was. Cee is Tara's mother.
Anyway, she said everyone at the Princess' ate well and enjoyed themselves. I'm so glad they did. I just went out to get myself some tea and discovered the Beast had put away the food before he went to bed. He always goes to bed early on Saturday night due to church tomorrow for him. But too often, I find the food out when I get up to get some coffee, tea or ice water, even if he says he will do that.
How are I feeling? Much better but that doesn't seem to mean much and I won't trust it until/unless I wake up normally in the morning. All I can do is wait and see and hope.
Weatherbug is saying warmer weather tomorrow. Since it's almost midnight and it's still 54 degrees out, I would have to agree with that forecast. Sure hope other areas of the country get some of this but I see more arctic air coming down to plague the mid-section of the country. Brrr.
Love you all. Please keep warm and dry and drive carefully. ***Hugs***
I know I had to have looked awful because Tara said I looked both pale and kind of grey. She has no clue what IBS is and I really couldn't go into it with her just then but I did manage to eat some of the great food. The Princess has turned into a great cook. She made a banana pudding that was incredible! Her turkey was moist and tasty. We had green bean casserole, some dinner rolls and even a slice of pecan pie that Johnnycakes dad had made. The mashed potatoes were great but I missed having some gravy for it. Oh well! Beggars can't be choosers....LOL!
I found out that Sheepie and Teach didn't make it either because Sheepie was sick. I don't doubt it after working for 12 hours straight on Black Friday! But she sent over the green bean casserole for everyone. That was sweet of her. Two of us down sick. Sad.
Tara stayed for a while and brought us up to speed on what's going on with her kids and her ex's. She said she knew she was a bad niece and needed to come and visit us more often. I just laughed and agreed with her. I know she's busy. It's tough working and managing a household. I remember. I also remember how much help my sister, Cee, was back then and don't know if she ever knew just how grateful I was. Cee is Tara's mother.
Anyway, she said everyone at the Princess' ate well and enjoyed themselves. I'm so glad they did. I just went out to get myself some tea and discovered the Beast had put away the food before he went to bed. He always goes to bed early on Saturday night due to church tomorrow for him. But too often, I find the food out when I get up to get some coffee, tea or ice water, even if he says he will do that.
How are I feeling? Much better but that doesn't seem to mean much and I won't trust it until/unless I wake up normally in the morning. All I can do is wait and see and hope.
Weatherbug is saying warmer weather tomorrow. Since it's almost midnight and it's still 54 degrees out, I would have to agree with that forecast. Sure hope other areas of the country get some of this but I see more arctic air coming down to plague the mid-section of the country. Brrr.
Love you all. Please keep warm and dry and drive carefully. ***Hugs***
Thursday, November 27, 2014
SORRY BUT I HAVE BEEN REALLY SICK....
I am not kidding about being sick. If I didn't know better, I would swear I had been poisoned. It was probably the worst case of IBS that I have ever experienced and no idea why. I thought over all I ate and there was nothing that should have brought this on. Unless, of course, I had a mild form of flu or some such thing. It was definitely a stomach virus of some sort.
It was really awful and made such a mess that I don't even want to recount it. Thank goodness for the Beast because he rose to the occasion and cleaned all the towels, blankets and jammies that got messed up. It was great of him to clean all that up for me. Now we just need to do a bit of rug cleaning. We will do that tomorrow.
I felt well enough today to finally eat something and to start making the food I am bringing to the Princess' house on Saturday. I will finish up putting it together tomorrow. I'm not sure I will be able to make up the nut cups but I can always make them for Christmas. I promised my girlfriend the recipe for them so I will have to send it to her tomorrow, when I am sure I am fully recovered. At least I got a shower today and feel more human. I did not do much except sleep and poop for the past three days. Having IBS is a real bitch. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I swear, I am going to have to get some Depends in the house for the next time this hits me.
It's been colder than hell the past couple of days besides and, wouldn't you know, both my baseboard heater and the little heater on my desk stopped working. Thankfully, we had a spare one for the desk and he managed to get the baseboard heater working. It was just a loose connection.
Right now, it's just 28 degrees out and due to go down to about 24 but clear. No snow. Tomorrow we are just going to have a high of around 47. It should be fairly nice on Saturday for our family Thanksgiving with a temperature near 60. I'll take that.....LOL.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving today. I'm just as glad we didn't have ours because I would have missed it and I would miss the company more than anything. Well, no...I would also miss the food. LOL!
Love you all. Hope you are keeping warm and dry. ***Hugs***
It was really awful and made such a mess that I don't even want to recount it. Thank goodness for the Beast because he rose to the occasion and cleaned all the towels, blankets and jammies that got messed up. It was great of him to clean all that up for me. Now we just need to do a bit of rug cleaning. We will do that tomorrow.
I felt well enough today to finally eat something and to start making the food I am bringing to the Princess' house on Saturday. I will finish up putting it together tomorrow. I'm not sure I will be able to make up the nut cups but I can always make them for Christmas. I promised my girlfriend the recipe for them so I will have to send it to her tomorrow, when I am sure I am fully recovered. At least I got a shower today and feel more human. I did not do much except sleep and poop for the past three days. Having IBS is a real bitch. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I swear, I am going to have to get some Depends in the house for the next time this hits me.
It's been colder than hell the past couple of days besides and, wouldn't you know, both my baseboard heater and the little heater on my desk stopped working. Thankfully, we had a spare one for the desk and he managed to get the baseboard heater working. It was just a loose connection.
Right now, it's just 28 degrees out and due to go down to about 24 but clear. No snow. Tomorrow we are just going to have a high of around 47. It should be fairly nice on Saturday for our family Thanksgiving with a temperature near 60. I'll take that.....LOL.
I hope you all had a great Thanksgiving today. I'm just as glad we didn't have ours because I would have missed it and I would miss the company more than anything. Well, no...I would also miss the food. LOL!
Love you all. Hope you are keeping warm and dry. ***Hugs***
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Chewlee And I Have An *Episode* Of Tummy Troubles
Chewlee wanted to sleep with me last night, which was fine with me once we got settled in comfortably. I had no idea that she wasn't feeling well (still) although she said she had thrown up twice on Saturday after the pictures the Beast took.
At one point, she started crying because her tummy hurt her. I wrapped my arms around her and held her, knowing that what she really wanted was her mommy and her own bed. But, she got up to go to the bathroom but came back into my room and suddenly threw up. Twice. But it really wasn't much and cleaned up easily. She said she felt better after that. I woke up early since the Princess had said she was coming over around 7:30am to get Chewlee and texted her to see if she really WAS coming. She called me back and said that she couldn't because Johnnycakes had left for work and the baby's car seat was in his car. I told her that I was going back to bed then because I was tired. Actually, I felt terrible.
Chewlee was asleep on the floor on a pile of comforters, with a pillow and a cover over her. I laid back in my recliner and suddenly..wham! I had to barf with no time to make the bathroom. Luckily, I had a towel handy and a couple rags so I was okay as far as that went. What's weird is that I felt better after I was done....just like Chewlee had said. And, no...it wasn't food poisoning because neither Chewlee or I had eaten the same things.
Later on, Chewlee woke up and asked the Beast if he would take her home. He had just gotten up so he told her he needed to wake up first. She came into the puter room and told me he was going to take her home when he *woke up*. I told her to let him drink his coffee first and then he would get dressed. I told her to get dressed herself and gather up all the stuff she had brought with her. I had already put some of them into her basket and she did have a couple things in one of her bags so that part was easy. She came over and gave me a hug when the Beast finally drove her home. I slept after she left for another hour or so but just felt a little funky when I finally woke up. I have no idea what we had but I do know she brought it with her and gave it to me....LOL! I hope she felt better once she got home to mommy and her own bed.
I spent the rest of the day just relaxing until I finally felt like eating again. I made myself a sandwich and a bowl of soup. The soup was actually this Chinese soup that reminded me of the kind the Chinese actually eat. Not noodles ramen. It was a bit spicy but very good and it all stayed down on me so I was happy. I think whatever we were suffering from was mild and passing. I hope so for Chewlee's sake anyway. She has school, I don't. LOL!
I made up my list of things I need to make what I am bringing over to the Princess' house on Saturday. I mean the list of what I need in order to make them. I should make the trip to the store to pick them up tomorrow because I don't want to wait until the last minute like a lot of people do. And I sure don't want to get caught up in the Black Friday rush....LOL! Besides, I want to make up the pecan cups early. They are best when made up a few days ahead.
I can't believe our weather today. Of course, it was heavily overcast and I had a hard time staying online since it's satellite. Even the TV kept messing up and losing it's signal. Then we had one heck of a fast storm and it was over. No more problems with the TV or the Internet. It was also fairly warm. It got up to 65 degrees and stayed at 61 after dark until after midnight. It's down to 59 right now but it's not supposed to get any lower than the low 50's. What the heck??? Weird weather.
My friend in San Francisco told me they finally were getting some rain by her, which made us both happy, I think. They have been in a severe drought there. I'm sure they didn't get enough to make up for what they need but anything is better than nothing.
Love you all. I wish you good weather this week. Stay warm and dry. Drive carefully and don't ignore any tornado warnings if it applies to your area. ***Hugs***
At one point, she started crying because her tummy hurt her. I wrapped my arms around her and held her, knowing that what she really wanted was her mommy and her own bed. But, she got up to go to the bathroom but came back into my room and suddenly threw up. Twice. But it really wasn't much and cleaned up easily. She said she felt better after that. I woke up early since the Princess had said she was coming over around 7:30am to get Chewlee and texted her to see if she really WAS coming. She called me back and said that she couldn't because Johnnycakes had left for work and the baby's car seat was in his car. I told her that I was going back to bed then because I was tired. Actually, I felt terrible.
Chewlee was asleep on the floor on a pile of comforters, with a pillow and a cover over her. I laid back in my recliner and suddenly..wham! I had to barf with no time to make the bathroom. Luckily, I had a towel handy and a couple rags so I was okay as far as that went. What's weird is that I felt better after I was done....just like Chewlee had said. And, no...it wasn't food poisoning because neither Chewlee or I had eaten the same things.
Later on, Chewlee woke up and asked the Beast if he would take her home. He had just gotten up so he told her he needed to wake up first. She came into the puter room and told me he was going to take her home when he *woke up*. I told her to let him drink his coffee first and then he would get dressed. I told her to get dressed herself and gather up all the stuff she had brought with her. I had already put some of them into her basket and she did have a couple things in one of her bags so that part was easy. She came over and gave me a hug when the Beast finally drove her home. I slept after she left for another hour or so but just felt a little funky when I finally woke up. I have no idea what we had but I do know she brought it with her and gave it to me....LOL! I hope she felt better once she got home to mommy and her own bed.
I spent the rest of the day just relaxing until I finally felt like eating again. I made myself a sandwich and a bowl of soup. The soup was actually this Chinese soup that reminded me of the kind the Chinese actually eat. Not noodles ramen. It was a bit spicy but very good and it all stayed down on me so I was happy. I think whatever we were suffering from was mild and passing. I hope so for Chewlee's sake anyway. She has school, I don't. LOL!
I made up my list of things I need to make what I am bringing over to the Princess' house on Saturday. I mean the list of what I need in order to make them. I should make the trip to the store to pick them up tomorrow because I don't want to wait until the last minute like a lot of people do. And I sure don't want to get caught up in the Black Friday rush....LOL! Besides, I want to make up the pecan cups early. They are best when made up a few days ahead.
I can't believe our weather today. Of course, it was heavily overcast and I had a hard time staying online since it's satellite. Even the TV kept messing up and losing it's signal. Then we had one heck of a fast storm and it was over. No more problems with the TV or the Internet. It was also fairly warm. It got up to 65 degrees and stayed at 61 after dark until after midnight. It's down to 59 right now but it's not supposed to get any lower than the low 50's. What the heck??? Weird weather.
My friend in San Francisco told me they finally were getting some rain by her, which made us both happy, I think. They have been in a severe drought there. I'm sure they didn't get enough to make up for what they need but anything is better than nothing.
Love you all. I wish you good weather this week. Stay warm and dry. Drive carefully and don't ignore any tornado warnings if it applies to your area. ***Hugs***
Saturday, November 22, 2014
Chewlee's Sleepover Day Two....
I really love to have Chewlee for a sleepover except she insists on making herself a bed on the floor of my computer room so she can be with me even when she falls asleep. Lots of time, she wants me to sleep on the floor with her. But I resist...most of the time...because I don't do floors well. LOL! Instead, I sleep in my recliner. Sometimes, in the middle of the night, she will crawl into the recliner with me. It's so sweet, even if it is a bit uncomfortable.
But you wouldn't believe the stuff she brings with her when she comes. Stuffed animals, tub toys, her artists box that's full of things like markers, crayons, colored pencils, chalks....all things for the creative! She did bring a change of clothes but no pajamas. So tonight she is wearing one of my t-shirts as a nightgown. I didn't want her to wear her clothes to sleep in.
My granddaughter, Sheepie, came over to spend some time with us. Since she knew Chewlee was here, she brought over her curling iron to curl Chewlee's hair so the Beast would take some pictures. Of course, she texted the Princess so the next thing I knew, the Princess and Gunner were here, too. The whole bunch of them went out to take pictures and some of them I really love. I'm going to post some of them tomorrow since the Beast was too mindblown after taking the pictures and then printing up the ones that everyone wanted. Gunner is a natural for pictures. He is so sweet and has the cutest smile. Chewlee was in a good mood for pictures so she turned out well, too. She felt glamorous. LOL!
I didn't have a tough time getting Chewlee to sleep last night. She is normally in bed by 8pm at the latest on school nights. But tonight she has been fighting going to sleep and her mother plans on picking her up at 7:30am. I keep reminding her of that because she loves her sleep and will be cranky if she doesn't have enough sleep when her mother wakes her up.
They are going to church, I believe and then home to decorate their tree. They were going to do it today but Chewlee insisted she wanted to stay here. It really was a beautiful day today. Temperature was 61 and it was nice and sunny out. I wish I could have appreciated it more but I had a touch of IBS.....again. It makes for a miserable day for me.
It cracked me up that Chewlee and Sheepie went shopping with the Beast at our new Publix and came home with a huge jar of pickles. They are both pickle addicts so there will be some here for them for the next couple of weeks, at least. LOL! There is no way the Beast and I will be able to use up a gallon jar of dill pickles. Neither one of us is a big fan. But the Beast did bring home some matzo ball soup mix so I think I will make some tomorrow and then maybe next Saturday when/if Sheepie comes over. I'll wait and make it while she is here so she knows how it's all made. She had asked some questions about it so I know she's curious.
Love you all. Stay warm and dry. Oh, talked to Mustachio briefly tonight. He volunteered to work for Thanksgiving. He says it's double time and a half for him so it's great money. When he heard we were having our Thanksgiving on Saturday, he checked his schedule but he has to work on Saturday. Otherwise, he would have come down to be with us all. I'm sorry he can't make it. Hope you all have plans to spend the day with family and/or friends. ***Hugs***
But you wouldn't believe the stuff she brings with her when she comes. Stuffed animals, tub toys, her artists box that's full of things like markers, crayons, colored pencils, chalks....all things for the creative! She did bring a change of clothes but no pajamas. So tonight she is wearing one of my t-shirts as a nightgown. I didn't want her to wear her clothes to sleep in.
My granddaughter, Sheepie, came over to spend some time with us. Since she knew Chewlee was here, she brought over her curling iron to curl Chewlee's hair so the Beast would take some pictures. Of course, she texted the Princess so the next thing I knew, the Princess and Gunner were here, too. The whole bunch of them went out to take pictures and some of them I really love. I'm going to post some of them tomorrow since the Beast was too mindblown after taking the pictures and then printing up the ones that everyone wanted. Gunner is a natural for pictures. He is so sweet and has the cutest smile. Chewlee was in a good mood for pictures so she turned out well, too. She felt glamorous. LOL!
I didn't have a tough time getting Chewlee to sleep last night. She is normally in bed by 8pm at the latest on school nights. But tonight she has been fighting going to sleep and her mother plans on picking her up at 7:30am. I keep reminding her of that because she loves her sleep and will be cranky if she doesn't have enough sleep when her mother wakes her up.
They are going to church, I believe and then home to decorate their tree. They were going to do it today but Chewlee insisted she wanted to stay here. It really was a beautiful day today. Temperature was 61 and it was nice and sunny out. I wish I could have appreciated it more but I had a touch of IBS.....again. It makes for a miserable day for me.
It cracked me up that Chewlee and Sheepie went shopping with the Beast at our new Publix and came home with a huge jar of pickles. They are both pickle addicts so there will be some here for them for the next couple of weeks, at least. LOL! There is no way the Beast and I will be able to use up a gallon jar of dill pickles. Neither one of us is a big fan. But the Beast did bring home some matzo ball soup mix so I think I will make some tomorrow and then maybe next Saturday when/if Sheepie comes over. I'll wait and make it while she is here so she knows how it's all made. She had asked some questions about it so I know she's curious.
Love you all. Stay warm and dry. Oh, talked to Mustachio briefly tonight. He volunteered to work for Thanksgiving. He says it's double time and a half for him so it's great money. When he heard we were having our Thanksgiving on Saturday, he checked his schedule but he has to work on Saturday. Otherwise, he would have come down to be with us all. I'm sorry he can't make it. Hope you all have plans to spend the day with family and/or friends. ***Hugs***
Chewlee Has A Sleepover...
Yesterday Chewlee called me to ask if she could have a sleepover. I had promised her she could when her mother said it was okay. I wanted to make sure she didn't have any activity that she needed to be at first and foremost. Well, it seems they have no more football games until around Christmas and her practices take place during the week to get ready for that. So, she called and reminded me that I had promised her (although I told her after Thanksgiving Day) but she's a kid.
Chewlee fell asleep while we were watching an Animal Planet special so I covered her up and turned off the light. The Beast was already in bed and I decided to get some rest, too. We both slept thru the night, which I needed because I woke up with a case of IBS this morning. I think it was because the Beast had turned off the baseboard heater at the fuse box and it got cold in here. I had to get up and turn the heater on my desk up to warm it up for both Chewlee and me. She was asleep on the floor and I knew she had to be cold without that heater working. I was totally pissed at the Beast over that.
But this morning Chewlee wanted to go out and ride her bike. It was 43 degrees out and she had not brought a jacket with her. The Beast told me, like I was an idiot, that *it wasn't all that bad outside so let her go*. But, sure as hell, she was back in the house within about 10 minutes and she was told she couldn't go out again without a jacket. She decided to watch cartoons and also to make some snowflakes with her artists colors (crayons, chalks, paints, etc.) and the paper I keep here for her while she watched TV.
She amazes me how big she is getting. I don't just mean tall...I mean how much older she acts at times. She fixes herself sandwiches now and she is even eating vegetables. Of course, I know most of that is due to her mother cracking down on her and being tough. Eat what we have or go hungry kind of tough. She learned but I am sure it wasn't easy on the Princess. And it's tough to send your child to bed hungry.
I have to post this now because I really need to go lay down for a bit until my tummy settles down. It's nice outside (61 and sunny now). Love you all. Hope you are getting a little relief from the cold weather (and, in some areas, the snow!). Stay warm and try to enjoy the day. ***Hugs***
Chewlee fell asleep while we were watching an Animal Planet special so I covered her up and turned off the light. The Beast was already in bed and I decided to get some rest, too. We both slept thru the night, which I needed because I woke up with a case of IBS this morning. I think it was because the Beast had turned off the baseboard heater at the fuse box and it got cold in here. I had to get up and turn the heater on my desk up to warm it up for both Chewlee and me. She was asleep on the floor and I knew she had to be cold without that heater working. I was totally pissed at the Beast over that.
But this morning Chewlee wanted to go out and ride her bike. It was 43 degrees out and she had not brought a jacket with her. The Beast told me, like I was an idiot, that *it wasn't all that bad outside so let her go*. But, sure as hell, she was back in the house within about 10 minutes and she was told she couldn't go out again without a jacket. She decided to watch cartoons and also to make some snowflakes with her artists colors (crayons, chalks, paints, etc.) and the paper I keep here for her while she watched TV.
She amazes me how big she is getting. I don't just mean tall...I mean how much older she acts at times. She fixes herself sandwiches now and she is even eating vegetables. Of course, I know most of that is due to her mother cracking down on her and being tough. Eat what we have or go hungry kind of tough. She learned but I am sure it wasn't easy on the Princess. And it's tough to send your child to bed hungry.
I have to post this now because I really need to go lay down for a bit until my tummy settles down. It's nice outside (61 and sunny now). Love you all. Hope you are getting a little relief from the cold weather (and, in some areas, the snow!). Stay warm and try to enjoy the day. ***Hugs***
Friday, November 21, 2014
Sad News About A Friend.....
As if worry about my brother was not enough, a friend of mine that lives in the UK had a heart attack on October 17th. It was severe and his doctor was amazed that he lived through it. It left his left ventricle (which is the main one that pushes oxygen rich blood thru your body) so badly damaged that he is in chronic congestive heart failure.
To make matters worse, he has had two minor heart attacks this week alone. The electrical signals that keep the heart beating in a good rhythm have gotten screwed up for him but he is not a candidate for any corrective surgery or even an implant for the heartbeat. He has a severe case of COPD and wouldn't live through anesthetics. This was news to me. I had no idea he had COPD until we were talking on the phone tonight. I was in tears over his acceptance of the fact that there is nothing that can be done for him. When they put the stents in his heart on the 17th, the doctors had to apply the shock paddles to bring him out of the anesthetic and also to get his heart to beat.
He told me he had signed a DNR (do not resuscitate). He said he had been given 23 more years than the men in his squadron that died in Desert Storm. He said when he died, he would be able to fly once again with them and he was looking forward to that. He did not expect any miracles and only hoped to live long enough to marry his fiance in January. He also said he did not expect to live to his next birthday, which is in March.
He was NOT looking for sympathy. He was urging me to accept that he was not going to be around for much longer. I told him that you meet so few good people in your lifetime that you just don't want to see them die and not be there any more. I feel badly for his fiance who hopes he lives long enough for their marriage. She lives in California and will be taking leave from her job to go over to the UK in December. She does not want him to die alone and have to be notified by his doctors that he is gone. They know she is his fiance and they keep her informed as to his health.
But it does tell you that, as bad as you think your health may be, things could always be worse. It seems the Beast has COPD but a mild form of it. He will be using his ventilator twice a day from now on, I gather. Since he isn't smoking, it will probably not get any worse unless he happens to get pneumonia or some other severe respiratory problem. Knock on wood, at least he isn't in danger of losing his life due to other problems.
It's been nice weather here today. It got up to 55 degrees and is supposed to hit around 60 tomorrow. It's cold outside right now (35 degrees) and is supposed to go down to around freezing. The Beast bought some suet and put it out for the birds using our feeders (we have three of them now). He enjoys seeing them using them and has bought a big bag of seed for the birds plus more suet. He also has been tearing up the stale bread we have and throwing it out in the yard as an extra for them and because you feel less like you are wasting it if you just throw it in the garbage.
I am ready for bed again so I will post this now and just leave saying *I love you all*. Tell everyone you care about that you love them. It's really easier than you think. Try it! Keep warm and dry. ***Hugs***
To make matters worse, he has had two minor heart attacks this week alone. The electrical signals that keep the heart beating in a good rhythm have gotten screwed up for him but he is not a candidate for any corrective surgery or even an implant for the heartbeat. He has a severe case of COPD and wouldn't live through anesthetics. This was news to me. I had no idea he had COPD until we were talking on the phone tonight. I was in tears over his acceptance of the fact that there is nothing that can be done for him. When they put the stents in his heart on the 17th, the doctors had to apply the shock paddles to bring him out of the anesthetic and also to get his heart to beat.
He told me he had signed a DNR (do not resuscitate). He said he had been given 23 more years than the men in his squadron that died in Desert Storm. He said when he died, he would be able to fly once again with them and he was looking forward to that. He did not expect any miracles and only hoped to live long enough to marry his fiance in January. He also said he did not expect to live to his next birthday, which is in March.
He was NOT looking for sympathy. He was urging me to accept that he was not going to be around for much longer. I told him that you meet so few good people in your lifetime that you just don't want to see them die and not be there any more. I feel badly for his fiance who hopes he lives long enough for their marriage. She lives in California and will be taking leave from her job to go over to the UK in December. She does not want him to die alone and have to be notified by his doctors that he is gone. They know she is his fiance and they keep her informed as to his health.
But it does tell you that, as bad as you think your health may be, things could always be worse. It seems the Beast has COPD but a mild form of it. He will be using his ventilator twice a day from now on, I gather. Since he isn't smoking, it will probably not get any worse unless he happens to get pneumonia or some other severe respiratory problem. Knock on wood, at least he isn't in danger of losing his life due to other problems.
It's been nice weather here today. It got up to 55 degrees and is supposed to hit around 60 tomorrow. It's cold outside right now (35 degrees) and is supposed to go down to around freezing. The Beast bought some suet and put it out for the birds using our feeders (we have three of them now). He enjoys seeing them using them and has bought a big bag of seed for the birds plus more suet. He also has been tearing up the stale bread we have and throwing it out in the yard as an extra for them and because you feel less like you are wasting it if you just throw it in the garbage.
I am ready for bed again so I will post this now and just leave saying *I love you all*. Tell everyone you care about that you love them. It's really easier than you think. Try it! Keep warm and dry. ***Hugs***
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