Thinking About Family And Friends Today......

I spent a lot of today thinking about everyone that affects my life.  My kids, my family, my friends...both the ones I have met with and the ones that I haven't.  It's funny how you can make connections with people that you haven't met in real life.  Sometimes, it's because you share a lot of life experiences with or ones that you meet because you have (real life) mutual friends.

I thought a lot about my kids, whom I am proud of.  They have made some good choices (and a few bad ones) along the way but they now are mature and happy.  Well, almost all of them but I won't go into THAT.  

I  thought about my family and said a few prayers for some of the things they are going through right now.  I included my friends, both real life and online.  We all have some problems that could use a little assistance to help us cope.  Whether they are believers or not, I believe in the power of prayer.  I know it helps ME cope.

I don't know why I started thinking about everyone in my life today.  Maybe it's because I am an old person and I can envision a time when I won't be here and that makes me sad.  I have a bucket list that includes seeing my great-great grandchildren being born.  How I would love that!  But by that time, I will be definitely an old, old person and who knows if I would even still have my mind clear and be physically capable of even holding them?  I have never thought about dying more than I have lately.  I guess my health problems are getting to me more than I thought.  I made a promise to my kids that I would outlive the Beast but who knows if I can really keep that promise?  I want to and maybe that will count.

My bff is 10 years older than I am and in poor health.  The thought that SHE might one day die makes me so sad that I refuse to think about it.  She has enriched my life in so many ways, including her kindness and her encouragement.  I don't know how I deserve her but I am so very grateful to know her.  We have never met in real life but we formed such a tight connection as we got to know each other.  We will probably never meet since I cannot afford to go visit her in California and her health won't permit her to travel far from home.  

I thought about the cousins that I haven't seen in years and wish we were still having our family reunions every year.  It was a great way to talk, eat good food and just catch up with all the things that had happened or were going to happen.  I thought about people that I have lost over the years that I dearly loved and wish I could see just one more time.  I would hug them and tell them how much I love them one more time.  It was truly a reflective time for me.

I wish all my family and friends love and good things to happen to them.  I wish them happiness and good health.  I wish them peaceful lives and joy for little things.  I love you one and all.  ***Hugs***