...but I have Chewlee here for her sleepover and she is fast asleep for over two hours now. I had fallen asleep while watching TV and so had she, along with her spare blankey that she keeps here. She was using it as her pillow, however, and wasn't clutching it to her. When she crawled onto the bed after I woke her, I just used it to cover her because she really wasn't awake. I will put her under the comforter on the guest bed when I go in to sleep in a few minutes. I am tired.
My son, Mustachio, and I had a kind of confrontation yesterday. For some reason, he went off on a tirade about what a terrible mother I was when he was young. It all had to do with the Golden Child. Unfortunately, there was a lot of truth in what he said and he had me in tears because I just couldn't believe that he harbored so much hatred in his heart after all these years. I got offline because he just wouldn't drop it and I spent an hour crying. Later, when I got online again, it started all over so I gave it up. I told him that I had apologized for that stuff several times and he should be able to get over it since I couldn't go back and make things different. But he couldn't/wouldn't let the matter drop. I got offline once again and stayed off. But I didn't sleep and that is part of the reason I am so damn tired now. I had to go to the Wound Center today and was amazed that I didn't have high blood pressure...LOL.
I love my kids and the Golden Child was given up on long ago because she preferred her drugs to family and friends. But I have three others, five grandkids and two and 3/4 great-grandkids. The Princess is due in less than 5 weeks now. He accused me of still caring for the Golden Child and even told me that he had discovered where she was living (if you want to call living under a bridge living) and that I could go and give her all she deserved. THAT really hurt me because it showed me that HE still cares enough to find her yet he accused ME of caring. And, in truth, I found out that I don't really care any more. She caused too much hurt in the family with her lies and all the stealing she did, some of which the other kids got blamed for. She is already dead to me now. Sad, don't you think?
But, I would have thought that Mustachio would have put all that behind him now. He knows we have nothing to do with her. We don't hear from her and make no effort to contact her. We don't even try to keep track of her although I know the other kids do check from time to time. I talk online to Mustachio all the time and thought we had a better relationship than was apparent last night. I know it could be drink that brought it out but that sometimes just enables people to speak honestly. It just breaks my heart.
Tomorrow they say partly cloudy with a 30% chance of showers. We had some of those today but the temperature was in the mid-70's and should be the same tomorrow. That's pleasant weather. As I went to the Wound Center, someone was burning leaves and it brought back memories to me. I have always loved that smell for some reason, although raking the darn leaves was never fun! I was glad when that chore was passed on to my brothers...LOL. But it may mean that Chewlee won't be able to play outside or ride her bike even. I didn't see her friend from school being dropped off at her dad's next door to us but that doesn't mean she won't be there tomorrow. Chewlee is hoping to be able to play with her. They are good school friends. We'll just have to wait and see.
Love you all. Have a great weekend. ***Hugs***
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