Upset And Heartbroken.......

This time, he's finally done it.  The unforgivable.  Worse, he tried to make it seem like *I* was either responsible or have lost my mind.  What did he do?  He threw out several of my picture albums with all the photos that I had saved over the years of my kids, grandkids and even the first great-grand.  

I wouldn't have realized this for a while except that Chewlee wanted to look through some of the pictures.  I sent her out to get one....just one, I told her....of the albums.  She came back in shortly after and asked me where the albums were.  I was going to just point to the shelf and tell her to pick an album when, to my shock, I saw that, not only were they ALL gone but also more of my books that the Beast hadn't thrown out the last time he *cleaned up* the bookcase.  When I asked him what he had done with them, he said, *I didn't do any thing to them.*  I said, *You obviously cleaned out the bookcase again...*.   He had the nerve to say, *I did that a long time ago!*  I just looked at him and said, *Liar!*  I didn't say it loud enough for Chewlee to hear me but he sputtered and yelled out loud, *I didn't do anything to the albums.  YOU must have moved them and forgotten it*.  I just stared at him and said to Chewlee, *Forget it, Chewlee, they're gone.*

I am still shaking and, isn't it funny but the Beast went to bed within five minutes after that was said.  He has probably locked the door afraid that I will come in during the night and kill him.  It's always the things that matter to ME that he just throws away.  Sure, he never loved his kids so it has never mattered to him.  And he wonders why I won't go to his church.  I want nothing to do with any church that has HIM as a member.   I told him a long time ago that he might be able to fool people, but he will never fool God.  

I woke up this morning with a stomach ache and it pretty much hung on all day long.  The Beast brought Chewlee home after her soccer game but, unfortunately, she had no clothes here for her to change into.  Not that SHE cared although she DID have what looked like a brand new t-shirt she brought along.   She told me that she will wear it in the morning with her soccer shorts.  

I'm just sick over the loss of all my albums.  I can't even say anything more about this so I am closing and just going to watch some TV before I see if I can sleep.  Love you all.  ***Hugs***